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July 31st, 2007

Me and Futher Reflections on Hinduism

Recently, I wrote about my initial reaction to Wikipedia’s overview of Hinduism, Here. My good friend Jason then posted some excellent comments, particularly regarding my criticism of the religion; and after some consideration, I felt it best to respond with an “Additional Impressions of Hinduism” post. This is great, because it’s a perfect example of how a blog can be useful. It’s a way of tracking one’s processing new ideas and concepts. Criticism is a great way of refining said process and discovering new things about the world around me, so may thanks to Jason. Below are the main points of Jason’s critique which I will address:

1) Why does there have to be the catch-22 that you propose? Why cant it be a win-win? Why can’t right action be for others as well as for-oneself? If one receives a personal benefit from doing something that genuinely helps others, I fail to see how this is a bad thing. One is supposed to act rightly without attachment to the outcome. I do not see how acknowledging that a personal benefit may also be received somehow negates the positive nature of this principle.

2) Further, I do not think that all Hindu’s necessarily believe in re-incarnation, and I would like to talk about Hinduism in terms of what value practice of it’s concepts has on THIS life.

3) There are two quotes from the Bhagavad Gita, that I came across while reading the section (of wikipedia) on Karma Yoga. I feel that after reading about Karma on there, and then reading your criticism, that two different things are being talked about. Do you feel that you have fully understood what Hindu’s are talking about in the concept of Karma, and have you been fair in your criticism?

a. The Gita says: “Therefore, without being attached to the fruits of activities, one should act as a matter of duty, for by working without attachment one attains the Supreme.”
b. And also: “Therefore, O Arjuna, surrendering all your works unto Me, with full knowledge of Me, without desires for profit, with no claims to proprietorship, and free from lethargy, fight.”

First and Foremost, I want to publicly thank Jason for his critique. It is useful and necessary in order to continually form better, more refined opinions and beliefs. Second, I am sorry for the late reply to his comments as I’m sure 1 or 2 of you were wondering about my response. I thought his comments warranted a full post.

In answer to the third point regarding what I read versus what “Kharma” is, I will certainly concede that my understanding of the concept is inadequate. Admittedly, the overview I read of Hinduism may have failed to communicate some things as well as other readings could have. Given the quoted text above, I will wholly admit the concept of “kharma” as communicated to me through my source was incomplete. However, while I will make said concession, I feel that I did understand it as it was communicated in my reading; and I responded to what I read. The problem is that what I read was not good enough. I have noted this in the post itself.

In regard to the first and second proposed points of interest, if the concept is not related to direct gain and is, in fact, more focused on one’s cultivating selfless action in hopes of a higher understanding of himself, the universe, his place in it, or other similar goals, than it may indeed foster good behavior which is not only beneficial to the recipient’s of it but also those who practice it. If one practices belief in “Kharma” in this way, then I will concede that it may, in fact, be a good system of morality. If a man is indeed able to detach himself from the rewards of his good action and live life in a way that benefits others because he believes that is right and he wishes live rightly regardless of outcome to his own “eternal spiritual journey”, then the win-win of the situation is obvious, and I accept that the concept is not only good but excellent.

I make this concession, however, with two points of interest. The first is that my understanding of mankind, not only spiritually but historically, is that mankind as a race is selfish, and that hinders this process from being “ideal” as it is described in the Gita. Like most systems, it may have a favorable and beautiful “ideal”, but said system, when encountered in “reality”, may be very difficult or nearly impossible to practice. This is of course could be said of most religions and is not reason to denounce it. I think that one can have a win-win in the situation if one detaches himself from expectation of reward as the quotes of the Gita suggest; however, if one believe’s in man’s selfish nature is commonly a primary motivator, it makes the “ideal” nearly unattainable.

In fact, I would have to say that in contemporary culture, at least in the west, “Kharma” is almost entirely a bastardization of its original concept. It’s a belief in receiving direct good for doing direct good, and I still think that if one is doing seemingly selfless action for direct selfish gain, that, at a cosmic, level he has received his “reward in full.” The reason I think this is that if a person is doing something “selfless” merely for selfish ends, then the cosmos, which judge such things, would somehow account for his selfishness and nullify any reward of which he believes he is deserving. So the catch-22 I think still holds when one practices the “tainted Kharma” or “perverted Kharma” as seen in Western pop culture—you know, when people do generous things because they think they’re going to get rewarded for it. Now, this is me bringing my own personal sense of “cosmic judgement” into the mix; but seeing as how this is my site, I tend to do that. I’m unsure if this adequately answers the concerns above, but it’s the best answer I have at present.

Based on the quotes of Kharma given above, I see that the belief teaches focus on the betterment of others for betterment’s sake out of duty or strict obedience. The concept in its pure, unbastardized form, is about removing from oneself the desires for direct rewards one can attain in favor of spiritual growth and progress. However, this concept can become problematic if the practitioner is manipulating it for his own personal, selfish, direct gains. Now, given that conclusion, there is a very, very important point I MUST make, and it is this. In any criticism of a concept or idea, one cannot negate the promise or goodness of a concept simply by attacking practitioners who abuse it for their own ends. For example, I cannot rightly dismiss the concept or idea of Kharma here simply because I feel it may be practiced wrongly. I can and certainly have condemned the malpractice and bastardization of it; but that does not have bearing on the original concept itself. That concept seems to be to be good.

However, there is still a flip side to this. At its heart, one could still say that Kharma is ultimately a “self-rewarding program”; for even in the first quote mentioned, “Kharma” is still, about “one’s attainment of the Supreme”. It’s still about doing something for one’s own ends, however noble those ends may be. And if one’s end goal is his or her ever-driving motivator for living, one can still see this as selfish and nullifying. It’s a bit reaching at this point, but it’s still a contention one could make. The first quote above affirms this. The second, however, does seem to be more along the lines of acting without any thought at all and just obeying out of sheer respect. I am unsure if that’s a more admirable calling, to obey without question, but it is certainly different than acting simply to gain something for one’s self.

Now, having said all of that, I think it’s important to note here a specific idea I had whilst dealing with this topic. In fact, this next point is perhaps the hardest spiritual question with which I have had to deal. Jason’s comments clearly showed that True Kharma is not about getting an immediate reward for one’s selflessness; rather, it is a constant pursuit of the high calling of enlightenment and understanding through selflessness without attachment. However, this is still, ultimately, a selfish end. One is still doing good to ultimately end up wherein he or she wants to, at a good place spiritually. It is a NOBLE end, but at its core, still a selfish one.

And, therein lies the rub–a thing I had not considered when last I wrote. I’d be a hypocrite and liar to make a statement like, “A religion that’s all about the betterment of oneself is self-refuting because its false altruism driven by selfishness” without a very important stipulation—one which may be a fundamental problem with NEARLY ALL religions and “Spiritual journey” systems. Arguably, the vast majority of religions at their core are this way. They are practices, systems, relationships, however you want to describe them, all headed toward one’s own goal whether it be enlightenment, eternal life, self-fulfillment, or any other noble end. Ultimately, most, if not all religions are about the individual seeking his her own ends in the distant future for their sacrifices or actions here in the present. If that’s the case, I may have a lot more questioning to do—particularly about my own spirituality as a Christian. Am I following God for God or for me? I guess the REAL QUESTION, the real deal is this:

“If God revealed to me that I would still go to Hell DESPITE doing good or serving Him or seeking Him, would I do it? If there was really NOTHING in it for me, would I sacrifice the uncountable sinful pleasures of the world, if I were to have no resulting positive end?”

That my friends is a question that has kept me up often of late, a question for which I still do not have an answer…It’s a toughy. Maybe as I come to grips with it, I’ll share some thoughts.

Also, while Jason has pointed out that not all Hindus hold to said Kharma in conjunction with reincarnation, I still hold to my prior criticsm to those who do. For those who believe in reincarnation as a system of justice administered by Kharma, the lack of caring for those born to disadvantage is still problematic.

July 30th, 2007

C.J. Customs: “Intervention” Spike

“Intervention” Spike


from the Season 5 episode of the same name

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Figure:
“Intervention” Spike

Series:
Buffy

Recipe:
This Spike is a bit of a mess. The head was made by slicing the face from a “Fool For Love” Spike and gluing it on a facless “Just Rewards” Spike head.The Frankensteined head was then put on a “Grave” Spike body with Season 54 Spike shoulders and “Grave” Spike arms. I then sculpted a shirt onto the grave spike chest.Paint apps were applied to the sculpted shirt (to match the arms), adn bruises and blood were painted on thereafter.

Accessories:
This Spike included a base only.

Reasoning Behind The Effort:
Well, I had made a “Fool For Love” Vampire Spike, and this head was the leftover. I had to do something with it, but it looked much to “Frankensteiny” for a regular figure. I had to go “battle damage”, so I did the “Intervention” Spike, based on one of the few Buffy: Season 5 episodes I like.

Additional Thoughts
This was one of my more ambitious customs, and I was very happy with him. He had fantastic detail and I really dug the battle damaged look. He was a cool addition to the portfolio. I sold him on Ebay, but he was good. (FIGURE COMPLETED IN LATE 2005)

July 29th, 2007

Movie Meview: Rocky Balboa: 5

rocky-balboa.jpgI’m one of the few people who like Rocky 5. In fact I am probably the only person who loves it. I thought it was a good bookend to the Rocky saga, and I love the final fight. Alot of people disagree with me, and that’s fine. However, truth be told, just because I liked Rocky V doesn’t mean it was the best way to end the series. Rocky Balboa is.

For those who haven’t seen it, Rocky Balboa echoes the original Rocky more than any of the other films. With our hero a bit down on his luck and just kind of coasting, he is more like a re-introduction to Rocky than a blanket continuation of his story. Now, instead of being a down-on-his-luck guy who needs a break, Rocky is retired celebrity, coming off of a career highlighted by uncanny successes. He’s lost his beloved wife Adrian and lives in the old nieghborhood, having lost his mansion and tons of money. Now, his income comes from a samll restaurant, for which he does all the shopping. After an ESPN CG fight says that Rocky at his prime would wipe the floor with the current champion, Rocky is

I am giving Rocky Balboa a very solid 5. I think it’s a very good film, and a great bookend to one of the greatest sagas in cinema history.

July 29th, 2007

Movie Meview: Tombstone: 4

tombstone.jpgTombstone is one of those flics that I don’t necessarily agree with on a Theological and Moral level; but dang it, it still entertains me every time I sit and watch it. Maybe I shouldn’t. I don’t know. There are plenty of movie’s I’ve seen that I’ve rejected for lesser sins, but something in Tombstone just keeps me coming back.

The movie follows a legendary account of the final law enforcement years of Wyatt Earp. The events of the film begin long after Earp’s time in Dodge City and continue past his last fabled ride. Earp, played wonderfully by super-cool star Kurt Ruseel is aided by best firned Doc Holiday, played by Val Kilmer in an Oscar-worthy performance. They fight “the Cowboys”, a gang of outlaws notorously reputed as the first exampl of organized crime in America. These bandits are portrayed in part by Thomas Hayden Chruch, Powers Boothe, and Michael Biehn. Dana Delaney, Sam Elliot, Charlton Heston, Bill Paxton, BIlly Zane, and Jason Priestley also serve in supporting roles.

Why I give Tombstone a pass when it is (a) obviously historically inaccurate, (b) blatantly anti-religious, and (c) overtly encouraging in regard to adultery, I’ll never know. Maybe it’s the awesome slew of likable actors, maybe it’s the actions, maybe it’s one of the few Westerns that has more pace than a turtly moving across the open plain. WHo knows? I certainly could not pinpoint the reasoning behind it. All I can say is that I dig Tombstone each and every time I watch it. It’s just the way it is. I think it’s just one of those action flics that I can’t dislike, no matter how hard I try. Maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe it isn’t.

Tombstone gets a 4 from me. I am aware of my personal disagreements with it, so it’s definitely not clocking in above a 4, but it’s certainly better than the movie’s I give a 3 to.

July 27th, 2007

C.J. Customs: Season 2 Spike

Season 2 Spike


from Buffy the Vampire Slayer


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Figure:
Season 2 Spike

Series:
Buffy

Recipe:
This figure was relatively simple.The torso and legs are from a MAC Xander figure, and the arms come from the villain character in the McFarlane Martix Reloaded Chateau playset. The head is from a “Beneath You” Spike. I then painted the shirt and sleeves red, and the T-shirt black in order to match Spike’s appearance from the show.

Accessories:
This Spike included a removable black jacket, saw, grass base, and bloody axe.

Reasoning Behind The Effort:
I had used a MAC Xander head for a “Hell’s Bells” Xander, and I needed to use the MAC Body, so I made this Spike.

Additional Thoughts
While the figure is essentially a way to get rid of parts, I still thought he came out nice. The arms from the McFarlane figure give him a bit of an “action pose”. His accessories, particularly the jacket are appropriate and fun. I had to sell this Spike, and I was okay with that. He came out well, but I didn’t NEED him for my collection. (Figure completed in Fall 2005).

July 26th, 2007

Movie Meview: The Descent: 7

WARNING: The following review contains numerous counts of obscenity becuase I wanted to honestly convey how I was feeling during this movie, and I feel that honesty outweighs possibly socially moral implications of obscenity.

the-descent.jpg I have never cursed as much in my life as when I watched The Descent. The entire time, I was on edge, and with each new major dilemma, all I could think, and say was, “No, noway, that’s bullshit.” And I’m not lying, that little phrase escaped my lips about 4 to 5 times. Moments of this film are that unbelievable. I also uttered “What the hell!!!” once or twice as well. Why? Becuase The Descent is probably one of the single best thrill rides I have ever been on while sitting on my couch. Look, I rarely demand anything from my readers, but I implore you, behoove you, beg you, to see The Descent and come back here and comment. Okay. Just do it, becuase I need to know if my wife and I are crazy for how tense this movie made us. We were on edge like a couple of kids hiding pot in their backpacks.

I don’t want to ruin anything about the movie, so I am giving as little away as possible. 6 girls go spelunking into a cave, problems ensue. It’s a horror movie. Okay, that’s all I’m going to say becuase I don’t want to spoil anything. That’s it.

Look, here’s the thing. I’m big into being clever, which is ironic consider how unclever I tend to be, but the fact is that The Desceent has everything to do with theme. It’s a film of ideas, about environment, circumstance, and a person’s reaction to it. The film isn’t perfect I’m sure; but I was so heatily engaged in it, so completely enrapt in what was happening onscreen, that I couldn’t find the problems; and I was trained to look for them (thanks, college). The movie is that good. It’s not for the faint of heart, the movie is tense, gory, and had my wife and I on the edge of our seats. In fact, I can’t remember the last time we were that afraid of anything on screen, at least not together. I really talk about one aspect of this film, the antagonists, so-to-speak, but I’ll wait to do it in the comment section once people have seen the flic and write in. Please do it. If you’re near me and want to borrow it, just shoot me a line.

I think it goes without saying that The Descent gets a 7. It is rated R for Obscenity, Violence, Gore, and Nightmarish Images.

July 25th, 2007

C.J. Customs: Glory

Glory


Buffy Season 5

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Figure:
Glory

Series:
Buffy

Recipe:
This figure was made by putting a Glory head on the Torso of a “Buffy vs. Dracula” Buffy figure. I then added vampire Buffy arms and glued the upper body onto the legs of an Anynaka (painted to look more fleshtone). I then paint the “Buffy vs. Dracula” top a light blue to match the lingerie Glory wore in the show.

Accessories:
This Glory figure included a base only.

Reasoning Behind The Effort:
This figure was made cause I didn’t like the Glory from the DST “The Gift” two-pack.

Additional Thoughts
I always felt that Glory’s iconic look was her blue nighty or her red dress. The outfir worn by the character in “The Gift” didn’t really reflect her personality or style well, and I wasn’t a fan. In the end, I think this variant was an excellent overall addition to my collection and a great variant. She is one of the many figures I have had to part with, and since Glory’s not my favorite, that’s fine. I hope her buyer is happy with her. (FIGURE COMPLETED IN LATE 2006)

July 24th, 2007

Movie Meview: Robocop: 6

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Okay, here’s some honesty. I know that Robocop is more than a comic book-esque action flic. I know there’s something being said. I know director Paul Verhoven (possible misspelling there is going for something poignant, something important. I feel it to the marrow of my bones that the movie is about much more than the surface. Unfortunately, I’ve also had one helluva time honing in on what that is, and everything I’ve come up with like I’m still not getting it.

What I am getting? Well, here’s the best I can muster at present. Robocop is actually Verhoven’s attempt to comment on the overt and prominent greed of the 1980s, and the logical results of it going uncurbed. These results of course being corporate control of not only security but life and death itself, not due to consumer interest but government dependence on corporate technology. This dependence will manifest itself in a failure of the government to police the corporate organizations, who will then in turn become the law, resulting in larger dangers for society as a whole. All that to say, society is paying a big price for the techonological developments of huge businesses to make our lives a little more comfortable. It’s ultimately going to be the downfall of our society to the point wherein truly governed society will be nonexistent and all that will remain is the haves guard themselves from the enormous numbers of the half-nots. Of course, I could also be completly off, which if I am, I’d love feedback. Please, please, please, if you have seen Robocop and have a take on what is trying to be said, please comment. I would really like to be corrected or confirmed on this assessment.

Beyond all that “meaning” and “theme”, there’s plenty more to love about Robocop. The designs are sensational, with ED-209 probably serving as the best security droid in history. The action is both interesting and ultraviolent, highlighting the film’s themes while also being highly entertianing. The overall performances and execution of the story is impeccable. The movie is pretty much PERFECT structurely for this type of “birth of a superhero” story, and many of the origin stories of the last 10 years could have learned quite a bit by studying it. It’s flawless.

Taking all of this into account, I am giving Robocop a 6. I was planning on a five; but upon further reflection, it’s a really fantastic film from start-to-finish, with something important to say, even if I failed to grasp it.

I got Terminator and Robocop as an impulse buy at Target in one set for $7.50. It’s pretty much the best deal I’ve gotten on DVDs, ever.

July 23rd, 2007

Movie Meview: Live Free of Die Hard: 5

die-hard-4.jpgLive Free and Die Hard is a fun time at the movies. Bruce Willis jumps onto a plane, then leaps off of it. He punches an Asian chick in the face. He launches a car at a helicopter. It’s good fun. At least, I think so. I know some people will think it’s too political, too over-the-top, too whatever; but I felt that it was the type of fun and ridiculous action movie we haven’t see since Conair–it’s a flic that knows it’s off the wall, and it’s fine with that, so it just ups the humor and the bullet-count and keeps running with a plot that should’ve ended in 45 minutes.

And that’s the only real problem I have with Live Free or Dire Hard. It could have been nonstop action at a breakneck pace for a solid 90 minutes, but instead goes for what feels like much longer, with major lulls for travel time, conversations about the fragility of technological realm, and whatever else they threw in to not shoot action sequences. Frankly, I think they had to this, becuase it looks like most of the action set pieces would have run them into the millions, each, so they needed som cheap scenes for filler.

It’s a sad fact, too; for if they trimmed 40 minutes out of the movie and kept it moving at a furious clip, with action sequence after sequence, it would probably be one of my favorite movies ever. The action is that fun and exciting. Bruce Willis continues to play McClain as a BAMF with an attitude; and he’s just as charismatic as he was in the first. Justin Long was okay, and Timothy Olyphant played a cool and calculated villain whose controlled response to McClain creates an interesting ying-to-ying-dynamic but makes him a little stilted.

Also,to anyone who thinks the PG-13 rating detracts from the necessities of the film, I disagree with you wholeheartedly. The film still has that great humor and action the series is known for, it only lacks the F-bombs (which are fun but not essential).

I am givng Live Free or Die Hard a solid 5 out of 7. It’s a fun time at the movies.

July 22nd, 2007

C.J. Customs: Holtz

HOLTZ


from Angel, Season 3

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Figure:
HOLTZ

Series:
Angel

Recipe:
This figure was made by putting a Toy Biz Norman Osborne head on a DST Mal body with pants from a “Bad Girls” Wesley. I then applied paint apps in order to make the figure match his character counterpart more closely.

Accessories:
This figure has crossbow, axe, stake, and base.

Reasoning Behind The Effort:
I am always trying to make more villains for my Buffy colleciton. Because of the way the market works, I always knew DST would be unable to release massive amount of villains, so this was an attempt to fill out my collection.

Additional Thoughts
This is a fine figure. It’s not perfect, but it’s a solid kit bash of an Angel villain. He’s serviceable as another villain in my collection. (FIGURE COMPLETED in WINTER 2006)